There is life and non-life and anxiety is the non-life in life. Non-life in life because we are actually alive when we are having this kind of experience. It is the condition of our mind that determines whether we have to stay there or not. If we can change or not. If we become big or small. If we hide or uncover.
The presence of anxiety in us is devastating at times. Reduce to ashes. And that's very painful for a controlling mind that wants everything plastic and well-formulated. However, one of the most profound experiences in life is turning to ashes, because from here it is the only opportunity we have to emerge in a new way and surely more appropriate to who we are essentially.
The physical symptoms that anxiety arouses are alarms that are activated to show us that there is something wrong, something that smells bad, something that suffocates. Some part of us that we repress, that we are crushing and forcibly shutting up. As we do not let it express naturally, it begins to move like an internal pressure cooker in the form of physical and mental manifestations.
Anxiety does not exist. We create anxiety. It is a condition of our mind, of our fears, of our defects, our dependencies, the need for control. That it does not exist by itself does not mean that we cannot experience it and that in the moment of experience it is devastating. I know it is, I have lived it in my own skin and I have been reduced to something very small. I only know that, in the end, thanks to anxiety I was born again. And to be closer to who I really and in essence.
The way to work it is by analyzing our life line. Who we have been and who we can become. Normally, in an experience of anxiety the inner voice has been more than repressed. We talk about that intuitive inner voice, which goes beyond reason and sometimes tells us things that scare.
Everything is better controlled and well placed, than not having to make many movements. Discovering who we have been and who we can become can be one of the most important discoveries of our life, if not the one that most. Normally, who we have been is used to being linked to who we were expected to be.
Therefore, all the external messages, all the expectations and all the projections that have been placed on our shoulders. Parents, teachers, grandparents, society, advertising, neighbors, friends, siblings… ourselves! When one begins to remove layers and layers and layers it is normal to feel the sensation that is naked.
That for the first time, after having considered what is really inherent in one, he realizes that if one removes everything that is not true, it remains nothing. In nothing ... in ashes ... and we return to the painful and transforming experience at the same time of having the possibility of rebirth to one's own death. And when you are left empty, when you don't know who you are, when you wonder what the hell you have come to do in this world ... you have the wonderful opportunity to start building this new I that may one day become..
A freer, more essential I. That is in the world connected with the beat of your own heart. That it will have better days and worse days but that will actually be chosen as its own life experience. This implies risks and failures. Risk of losing, of letting go, of separating from old patterns that will suddenly have become outdated and will no longer serve in our experience of Being.
One will feel that what was worth before is no longer valid now and this is a very deep experience of uprooting and detachment. Being able to remove all the chains and fly free sounds very nice but it is not always an easy decision.. This possibility always promises new horizons and new opportunities. But one has to be willing to let go, not to look back at many moments, to trust more in what something says deep inside than in what they mark out there.
Yes, sometimes it is swimming against the current, it is feeling that no one accompanies, that nothing understands. However, if there is a feeling that this effort is paying off, that this is the path where the promised treasure of discovery seems to be hidden, then move on. Only in this way can we reach the promised land. To our inner kingdom. The only place where all the treasures that have been and have been.
When a child is young, he has the inherent experience of trust in who he is to be. The mere fact of not making any mental statement about it, surely because cognitively it is not yet possible, makes it impossible to consider the experiences and possibilities of life as good or bad. They simply are. If he walks and falls, he cries and goes on. If you touch something and it burns, you complain and you will have learned. There is no way to crucify any experience. Simply, things are, and the little adventurer is with them.
A secure link it allows this feeling of being able to eat the world because the world cannot eat me. It is only in rather insecure or ambivalent bonding situations that the child begins to experience fears and anxieties from very early ages. Where he already begins to carry a series of messages and backpacks that surely are not his but that have already been transferred to him.
And children are vulnerable, you know? They are made, because of what they already are essentially and because of what comes to them from their environment. If the world is presented to them as an unsafe and dangerous scenario, this person must start creating their own weapons because their survival instinct will tell them that if they want to move on they have to be well protected. If, on the contrary, he is taught to trust, to believe, this child will have more freedom in not creating limits that prevent him from seeing the sky.
We get sick when we deny this trust that inherently connects us to life and what it has to be. We consume ourselves when, out of fear of doing or of being, we stand still "just in case".
The experience of anxiety for me is the maximum alert of the urgency that this trust and connection to life has to be again. There is nothing in us that is faulty, it is a mistake to think this. We are whole as we are, even if we were missing a part, we would be because of who we are, not because of how we are.
When in an experience of discomfort or illness we want to remove the part that causes this discomfort, it is as if we really wanted to remove a part of ourselves. It is an experience like wanting to unscrew our heads when it hurts, but at a deeper level. Cultivating the full sensation of perfection for who we are, invites us to take a closer look at both this perfect part and others of myself or myself that are now calling my attention for some reason..
The exaggeration of a symptom can safely take us to the deepest part of our experience. Tremble even more it can denote the insecurity we feel in every step we take. The tachycardia That increases can make palpable the feeling of alertness and fear with which we live. The breathe fast and more superficially it can show the demand, pressure, feeling of suffocation with which I sometimes live in my life.
The feeling completely stiff or stiff it may be the reflection of my need for control, for manipulation of wanting things to be just the way I hope they are and hoping that the surprise factor will disappear. And what is interesting about this? Well, from all this information we have to be left with the words that define our emotional state, which is the only one with which we can really deal. In this case it would be: insecurity, fear, demand ...
And so this welcomes me to ask myself: What is insecurity to me? When do I feel insecure? On what occasions in my life have I felt the most like this? Is there anyone in my family who is, too? When I was little… did I realize it in any way? Have I received messages throughout my life that alerted me to how dangerous everything can be? And so, with each of the experiences that emerge to the surface as we face ourselves.
Walking the road with confidence is one of the most precious values that we can find throughout life. Confidence that everything is when it has to be, and that everything will be when it has to be too. That has nothing to do with passivity. Rather, it is to bet on all the percentage that corresponds to me of responsibility with myself to do what my heart and my soul mark in an essential way.
Because we all have a why. However, at the same time, accepting the uncontrollable portion of life, which is inevitable and underlying it. It would be like naming that phrase that says that it is silly to worry about what we cannot change ... and it is also foolish for what we can change!! Accept the dual part of existence without identifying with it.
This is the exercise of our mind. Being able to observe without identifying ourselves. We are used to getting involved in situations as if they were our own. And do you know? They are ephemeral. Everyone will continue when we are not ... It is then necessary to ask ourselves to what extent it is worth getting personally involved with according to what situations and people, especially with those that make us feel bad and produce feelings of discomfort.
To trust in the free flow of one's own movement is to continue on the right path. When reason is not there and the heart speaks. The body that is the vehicle of the heart. The heart, which is the abode of the soul.
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